It’s bitter that no one understands.
Not even my family, my friends, my boyfriend. Nobody. Zero. A nada. I’m a dead beat. A bum. A good-for-nothing, a loser, a might-have-been, a washout, a born loser. I don’t even have a fucking piece of ego to even cock up for myself.
It’s like I’m completely by myself in this life, and there’s nothing more diddly dreadful than being alone but you’re not actually not alone. Hm